(The girls in conversation are Nikita (N) and Shikha (S), two imaginary persons, who are colleagues, best friends and mirror to each other)
N: OMG he is again online!
S: Who? Okai your guy.
N: Yeah! Now a days he remain online for the entireee fucking day.
S: Are you Jealous?
N: Why would I?
S: Just block him, from here and from your life as well.
N: Sigh!!!!!!!I don’t know why…. but I can’t block him.
S: I just don’t understand why the hell you giving him that shitty importance in your life that you sulk seeing him online but never feel like blocking him. C’mon cut the crap out and block him, stop spoiling your life. Grow up! There are almost 7 billion people on this planet and you wanna sit and sulk over one person?
N: I don't give a damn shit, whether he is online or not.
S: Then why don’t you block him?
N: Coz I want to know how many hours in a day he remains online.
S: And why the hell you want to know this?
N: Coz I want to know for whom on earth he get time all of a sudden that he remain online for the entire Fucking day.
Coz I wana know how and when chatting becomes so much interesting for him that he start remaining online for hours.
Coz every time I saw him all cool, calm and collected, I lose my breath, my heart starts pounding and I am painfully aware that I am not over him and he is over me. Seriously it hurts and it hurts hell a lot.
S: Yes dear, it hurts. But now he is over you. So, just move on, stop sulking for someone who don’t deserve u. Sometimes you just have to hold your head up high, blink away the tears and say good-bye. It’s high time now. Just forget him.
N: Oh how I wish I could shut my eyes and just forget him,
How I wish I could spend a few hours not thinking of our time together,
How I wish not to be jealous of ally girls he is moving around
How I wish I could leave him the way he left me, no questions, no answers.
How I wish to be strong enough to move on
How I wish I could proudly say to myself that "i am completely over him"
But it’s not easy…trust me…am trying my level best but it’s not easy….
(Tears start rolling her cheeks when she thought of the good old days…..
(The time when she was too busy to chat and he usually text her to come online and always initiate the conversation with a heart shaped smiley <3.
When they used to chat for hours, on anything random, on bollywood actor to politics, on food to shopping, on movie to projects, on every random fucking topic. And whenever she don’t feel like chatting he kept buzzing her and kept sending her that sweet lovey dovey Smileys. How cute were those days!!).
But all of a sudden he changed. He didn’t chat, and hardly text her. Long text chats had stopped merely on one liner good morning and good night texts. He rarely respond whenever he saw her online and whenever she tries to initiate chat he become offline or rather becomes invisible just to avoid talking to her. She came to know from someone that he is moving on with someone else. She visited her profile so many times just to know what special quality that his new love holds that she lacks. Why he stop talking to her all of a sudden. Why he left her for some other random girl. And now for that girl he remains online from morning till night.
She came back to senses from memory lane with the touch of Shikha on her shoulder. Shikha came and sat beside her.
S: Don’t worry he will get hurt one day and he will be standing in the rain all alone wishing you were there with him…. If he is stupid enough to leave you, be smart enough to let him go!
N : But why do guys seem to have such an easy time getting over us. it’s like we go on facebook and they are chatting with everyone “loling and hahahing ”and our facebook is empty with the hope that the guy will look at us, talk to us. you know he told me he would never dream of leaving me, he cried every time he thought of us not being together, he was the most perfect, most amazing, best guy I could ever dream of and all of a sudden he stopped caring, stopped wanting to see me, stopped Calling me 24/7. Doesn't he understand that it hurts!!!
(Shikha said nothing just came closer to hug her. Because sometimes, all you need is just a hug. No words. Nothing. Just a simple, long hug)
(Missing someone you once had, is like removing your ring at your finger that you have worn for very long, it feels like it’s still there, but it’s not…)
